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Ru - 20 - British - writer - law and politics student - Christian - liberal - feminist - demi-bisexual - INFP - fangirl - bookworm - gamer -Whovian - Water Tribe - Ravenclaw - King's Musketeer - Dearie - Rumbelle War Veteran - Swanfire - Doctor/Rose - Jeff/Annie - Annamis

Lover of things small, dark, quiet and messy
OUAT AU: The Other Boleyn Girl

“I was born to be your rival,’ Anne said simply. ‘And you mine. We’re sisters, aren’t we?”

OUAT AU: The Other Boleyn Girl

“I was born to be your rival,’ Anne said simply. ‘And you mine. We’re sisters, aren’t we?”

  #OUAT    #once upon a time    #ouatedit    #snow white    #regina mills    #prince james    #the other boleyn girl    #philippa gregory  

I’ve said this before, but I’ll say it again: Regina’s asking for too much too quickly, and gives up when she doesn’t get it immediately. She wants to go from zero to family in ten seconds, because Henry is with the Charmings and she wants to be where Henry is. That’s it, that’s all of it. I’d also argue that there’s a certain envy of Emma’s strength, how she stuck to good throughout their season 1 battles and won everything Regina has tried to gain all these years, at play here. I don’t think she’s aware of it, just like I don’t think she realises that she’ll never be able to kill Snow White because, deep down, Regina feels a deep love and connection to her, and doesn’t truly want her dead. That and the fact that if Snow died and everything still sucked for Regina, she’d have to face some harsh truths about her own responsibility for it.

She has never truly apologised or taken responsibility for the reasons why accepting her would be difficult for the Charmings; in fact, she’s blamed Snow before now - “I was always the Queen; it was you who added ‘evil’ to my name” - for her fall. She swings wildly between ‘I want to be good and one of the Charmings and be close to Henry’ and ‘Crush, kill, destroy! Mwaahahahahaaha!’.

And then she wonders why, when she tries to be nice for once, they don’t accept that as the way things will always be and invite her over for coffee and cake. She hasn’t actually tried very hard, all things considered, to be accepted. She hasn’t taken Snow, Charming and Emma as inextricable parts of Henry’s life and tried to win them over genuinely: she’s just screamed “I WANT EVERYTHING NOW PLEASE” and been surprised when they don’t hand it over.

I want a Regina redemption arc. But I want it to take a season or two, and be a genuine development of Regina’s character and inner life, rather than a fairly immature reaction to losing something she wants back, and blaming the whole world when she doesn’t get it immediately.

I also think she’s so self-unaware that she looks in the mirror and is surprised there’s a person there everyday, but that’s just me.

  #more regina redemption thoughts    #regina mills    #ouat  

Fic: The Eye Of The Beholder (4/4)

Title: The Eye Of The Beholder
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Belle is blind, and Rumpelstiltskin is a demon, and both are cursed and more than a little broken.

A/N: Yes there’s four chapters instead of the planned three. Deal with it.

Chapter 1  - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4

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Chapter 4
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They heard her name shouted, a madman’s raving in the dark.

He’s a stupid, stupid creature, her Rumpelstiltskin. Belle had thought he’d have the decency, or at least the wit, not to mention her to anyone. She is gone, she has not seen him since that terrible morning where they cried on the floor, and he hurled her far, far away from him. He has not come for her, and she has not gone back to him. Whatever they had, whatever magic they made together, died that day.

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  #rumbelle fic    #rumbelle    #rumpelstiltskin    #belle french    #Rumplestiltskin    #once upon a time    #ouat    #ouatfic    #fanfiction    #blind!belle    #fic: the eye of the beholder  

Fic: The Eye Of The Beholder (3/4)

Title: The Eye Of The Beholder
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Belle is blind, and Rumpelstiltskin is a demon, and both are cursed and more than a little broken.

A/N: Yes there’s four chapters instead of the planned three. Deal with it.

Chapter 1  - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4

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Chapter 3
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It’s ironic, Belle thinks bitterly as she walks away from the castle, down the road and away from home, that she should regain her sight only to be sent to stumble in the dark, half blinded by tears.

The moon is out, at least, lighting her way. It hasn’t changed - and why would it? - since she saw it last, as a child in her father’s palace. The sight is comforting: the moon shines over her home as well, and over Rumpelstiltskin, and now she can see it as bright as he, as clear as he, for what good it does her.

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  #rumbelle    #rumbelle fic    #Rumpelstiltskin    #belle french    #ouatfic    #ouat    #once upon a time    #blind!belle    #fanfiction  

Fic: Needful

Title: Needful
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Rumpelstiltskin is away on a deal, and Belle gets lonely.

A/N: So a while back Sco and I were talking about smut ideas, and we talked about what could be done with a magic mirror. It’s also a belated birthday present to both Sco and Cal, because I love them both very much, and they’re also the biggest smut fans I know :D

It’s part of my Not Quite Yet series, between ‘Too Long On The Vine' and 'Master or Lover’, but all you need to know is that Belle and Rumpelstiltskin are in the Dark Castle, and have a sexual relationship without being in True Love yet.

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Rumpelstiltskin was away; he hadn’t thought to tell her where he’d gone.

Belle didn’t care to know, either. It was easier not to ask, and to busy herself sewing or reading while he was away than to know and wonder if he’d lied. If he’d actually gone to steal a child from its mothers arms, or to murder a man in his sleep, spill blood on cold cobblestones for some wicked magic. Belle did not want to know Rumpelstiltskin’s secrets, and so she did not ask.

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  #rumbelle fic    #rumbelle    #Rumpelstiltskin    #belle french    #calonari    #valoscope    #ouat    #once upon a time    #smutty smut smut smut    #fanfiction    #series: not quite yet  

Fic: The Eye Of The Beholder (2/4)

Title: The Eye Of The Beholder
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Belle is blind, and Rumpelstiltskin is a demon, and both are cursed and more than a little broken.

A/N: I wanted to add more scenes to this part, but they felt superfluous and didn’t add to the plot any. I might write more as little scenes and outtakes, though, there’s a certain ballgown I want to play with…

Chapter 1  - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4

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Chapter 2
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After that surprising initial hug, whatever boundary to physical contact they had shared seems to have broken. Suddenly, Belle is caught in a whirl of little guiding touches to her arm or back, and the near-constant sensation of him beside her - closer than he ever would have dared before - before placing a hand on her shoulder to help her down the stairs or around a corner.

Rumpelstiltskin seems to almost hover, these days, and more often than she expects his hand slides into hers, and she is lead that way through the passages without ribbons to guide her.

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  #rumbelle    #rumbelle fic    #Rumpelstiltskin    #belle french    #rumplestiltskin    #blind!belle    #fic: the eye of the beholder    #ouat    #once upon a time    #fanfiction  

Fic: The Eye Of The Beholder (1/4)

Title: The Eye Of The Beholder
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Belle is blind, and Rumpelstiltskin is a demon, and both are cursed and more than a little broken.

A/N: This is another one of those stories I’ve had planned forever, and another that is also Fyre’s fault. Blame her.

Chapter 1  - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4

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Chapter 1
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Everything in the Dark Castle is neat and orderly.

Every coil of thread, every artifact, every trophy and exacted price, every little treasure or trinket has its own nook to call home. Nothing lies about, ready to be stepped upon. For a creature born of whirling chaos, Rumpelstiltskin maintains order like a peasant cook in a manor: all things where they should be, and nothing out of place.

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  #rumbelle fic    #rumbelle    #belle french    #rumpelstiltskin    #Rumplestiltskin    #ouat    #once upon a time    #fanfiction    #fic: the eye of the beholder    #blind!belle  

Fic: Comfort In Words

Title: Comfort In WordsRating: very NC-17
Pairing: Bay Gold/Graham Hunter
Summary: Bay and Graham go shopping for books; no books are found

A/N: So this is actually a really smutty prequel to my Bay/Graham and Rumbelle fic that’s sort of college!AU. But this alone is basically just your straight up college!AU. With a lot of smut. Bay looks like this because I started this well before Nealfire.

For Fyre because she promised me Rutherglens in return.

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Bay Gold had discovered, through a good few months of trying desperately to be clandestine, that Graham Hunter had a certain exhibitionist streak to him.

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  #bay x graham    #graham hunter    #baelfire    #college!AU    #fanfiction    #smutty smut smut smut    #ouat    #once upon a time    #amuseoffyre  

I think this is the actual core of the problem with Regina’s redemption arc: she never does it for its own sake. All though the first half of Season 2, she was doing it for Henry, or for the town’s acceptance, or even - perhaps - to restore the influence she once held through fear. She never does it because she can’t live with what she did, or because she feels guilt over the pain she caused, or even because she genuinely wants to be a better person. Everything is motivated by attaining a goal - Henry, the town, and perhaps her own power.

Which is why she was so easily turned by Cora: she has no motivation beyond immediate material gratification to do this. She doesn’t feel badly about killing Leopold or Graham or countless others, or about the Curse, or about anything else. She hasn’t forgiven Snow and that was the feud that started this. She doesn’t have to like the town, and for self-professed good guys they admittedly didn’t give her much of a chance (which is a whole other essay) but she shouldn’t, essentially, have needed them to. She has no genuine remorse, that we have seen, for anything that she’s done. And that made her a fantastic villain in season 1, but it makes her redemption arc incredibly unstable.

In the end, she was trying to be good to get Henry back. And she realised that to do so she’d have to co-exist with Emma and Snow and Charming, and accepted that, for which I was very proud of her. But the moment those three stood between her and Henry and Cora provided a solution, she reverted to her old patterns. She wants Henry back and we’ve seen that Regina is an any-means-necessary kind of woman.

She’s also impatient: she wants him back and she wants him back now. She wanted Snow, Emma and Charming to help her and she wanted them to help her right away. She asks ‘what did it get me?’. If she’d wanted redemption, truly wanted to be good, then just being good should have been its own reward, and given her some peace of mind. She’s looking for a greater reward, and she won’t find it. She has a long road before she’s even able to understand that Snow and Charming are good because they want to be good, not because someone is giving out trophies at the end, or because they want people to like them.

She still has no empathy for the pain she caused them, no understanding that they hurt in the ways that she hurts, and because of that no remorse upon which to build a solid desire for redemption, that would be its own reward. They had a right to assume that she might have killed Archie: she’s killed before and she’s only been good a few weeks/months, time that Emma and Snow didn’t even see. If she understood the gravity of the pain she caused, she wouldn’t expect them to forgive her instantly: she’d understand that it will take time and patience and work. That’s the only mindset that will allow her redemption to stick. Until she understands that she hurt these people as much as others have hurt her, then she isn’t going to be able to feel sorry for what she did, or have any genuine desire to change for change’s sake. She’ll keep doing it all for Henry, and when it looks like it’s not working, she’ll change tack and try something else.  That’s not a redemption arc, that’s a quest.

This scene shows perfectly why Snow will never forgive Regina, and why Regina will never ask her to. Even with her own redemption for crimes she committed entirely by herself, Regina sees herself as the victim rather than the perpetrator. And Snow, too, sees herself as the victim rather than accepting any responsibility for letting Regina fall back to Cora, although she is at least a little more justified, in my opinion, than Regina in this view. Regina never apologised truly, without hope or agenda. So Snow cannot forgive her truly, without hope or agenda. Remorse and forgiveness, like redemption, must exist in a vacuum: they have to happen for their own sakes to be true. A few good deeds don’t make up for years of murder, rape, and abuse, especially when she killed the woman in front of her’s father in cold blood, and proceeded to try to kill her too for a mistake she made in good faith as a child. A few good deeds don’t make up for that, especially when not accompanied by any genuine remorse or empathy. Snow will have a long way to go before she can understand where Regina is coming from - and this new dark side arc will help, I think - but Regina also has a very, very long way to go before she’ll see that forgiveness isn’t something she should expect just because she wants it, but something that needs to come organically from a long period of genuine hard work at being a better person for her own sake.

  #ouat thinky thoughts    #i like that tag    #Regina Mills    #snow white    #ouat  

Fic: Yellow (Sunbeams, blondes, and lemon shampoo)

Title: Yellow (Sunbeams, blondes, and lemon shampoo)
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Baelfire was running away, but Neal prefers to chase. He starts another new life in another new world. Swan thief.

A/N: WOOO FINALLY NEAL POV. Thank you Manhattan! For Celina, but let’s face it, all my swan thief fics are for her :)


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Baelfire’s only been in this world without magic for a few days, and he hates it already.

It’s a disappointment: it has taken him so much longer than he’d expected to get here, and he’s been dreaming of settling someplace far away from fairies and magic and the dark for so long. He wanted to get to this place, the world he was promised so very long ago, and know peace.

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  #swan thief    #swan fire    #emma swan    #baelfire    #neal cassidy    #neal cassady    #ouat    #once upon a time    #fanfiction  

Fic: Cuffed

Title: Cuffed
Rating: very NC-17
Summary: Rumple’s knack with handcuffs comes in handy.

A/N: A smut piece I’ve been working on for months and never got finished, now done and dusted in honour of my lovely twin! ASSISTANT DIRECTOR AND SHE’S JUST A FRESHMAN THAT DESERVED SOME CELEBRATING OK.

It’s set in some nebulous time after ‘Crocodile’ but before ‘Outsider’. So maybe around ‘Cricket Game’.

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Belle slept over last night.

Rumpelstiltskin can barely believe it. It’s been months since she strode out of the mines, since he told her the truth and said goodbye. He had honestly assumed, in that moment, that he’d never see her again. Or worse, that she would be a private ghost, someone desperately yearned for, seen every day, from whom he was always barred.

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  #rumbelle    #rumbelle fic    #belle french    #Rumpelstiltskin    #Rumplestiltskin    #ouat    #once upon a time    #smutty smut smut smut    #fanfiction  
OUAT: You never know a character until you've seen the whole story. Until you've seen what they're hoping for and what they've come up against and where they're coming from. You can't know who you're looking at until you've seen where they've come from.
Fandom: Or until you've seen them stood next to Cora.
  #cora mills    #ouat    #this is silly I'm sorry  

Ficlet: Ashes and Lime

Title: Ashes and Lime
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: 2x15 ‘Manhattan’

A little Nealfire ficlet for Celina, who prompted ‘Neal’s pov from after Emma leaves him at the bar’. This came out a lot more Rumple-centric than Swan Thief, but it’s all there!


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There’s not a lot I remember about my father that doesn’t suck

Emma’s face when he’d said that… gods above, it was the weirdest mix of understanding and horror that Neal had ever seen. As if she hadn’t, all those years ago, been the only person in this whole fucking universe - this world, and the last, and knowing his luck, the next as well - who could see through all his own bullshit. As if she believed him.

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  #nealfire    #baelfire    #Rumpelstiltskin    #swan thief    #swanbug    #ouat    #once upon a time    #fanfiction  

I had the angstiest idea for a Snowing video ever.

Probably because I feel like these two are headed for serious relationship issues and maybe even a temporary break-up and I kind of love it. I ship them so hard but they’re more fun (and actually a bit smarter) when they’re angsting. I want their relationship to have problems of its own, without Evil Queens/curses/evil Kings/trolls/anything else to blame it on.

Problem is, I can’t vid. Maybe I’ll have to fic instead.

  #snowing    #snow white x prince charming    #ouat  

Fic: Reasons

Title: Reasons
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Bae’s teacher offers to come over and fix his computer over the winter break; they get snowed in.

A/N: pure happy fluff to celebrate one whole year of Rumbelle. Remix of ‘Chalkdust’, but no need to read that first. No FTland backstory, Bae is twelve and Belle is his teacher.

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This was a bad idea, Gold thought, a bad, bad idea.

But Bae had computer trouble, and it was beyond even his extensive skill to fix. His father was no use: Gold hadn’t even a computerised till at the shop, and did all of his accounts by hand: he wouldn’t know a keyboard from a modem if they walked up and introduced themselves.

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  #rumbelle    #rumbelle fic    #fluffapalooza    #belle french    #Rumpelstiltskin    #mr gold    #ouat    #once upon a time    #fluff    #diabetes fluff    #fic: chalkdust