Never trust free fruit
And the worry cracks a fracture from your hip to your chest
Ru - 20 - British - writer - law and politics student - Christian - liberal - feminist - demi-bisexual - INFP - fangirl - bookworm - gamer -Whovian - Water Tribe - Ravenclaw - King's Musketeer - Dearie - Rumbelle War Veteran - Swanfire - Doctor/Rose - Jeff/Annie - Annamis

Lover of things small, dark, quiet and messy

does anyone else ever listen to a song and think ‘wow this is awesome’ and really connect with it without knowing why, because it doesn’t have anything to do with any feeling you actually have or anything that’s happened to you, and then, ages later, something happens and the song fits now like it was waiting for you? 

  #nightblogging    #night blogging    #sorry    #it's 1am i'll go back to writing porn now    #tbd    #ru in real life  
May I PLEASE have a playlist? My name is Amber...


A -> Always Gold - Radical Force
M -> Misguided Ghosts - Paramore
B -> Bleeding Out (In A Round) - Imagine Dragons
E -> Everybody’s Fool - Evanescence
R -> Radio - Vienna Teng

  #this turned into a bucky barnes thing    #sorry    #Anonymous  
If you’re under 30 and in a relationship right now, and you’re not head over heels, get out. You are way too young to be wasting your time with someone who doesn’t make you really happy to be with them every day. There’s nothing sadder than watching 23-year-olds settle.

Carolyn Hall, 17 Thoughts for Single Women From A Divorcee (via silhouettesofspilledink)

a part of me thinks this is super cynical, but another part completely agrees. I can’t imagine staying with someone who doesn’t make me feel head over heels and having to see and live with them every day until I die.

(via thereisagreatperhaps)

There’s just this massive social pressure to have everything sorted super early. Know what career you want. Know if you want kids. Find someone to marry so you don’t have to worry about dying alone. All super super early. And I know too many people in relationships at 20 who’re ready to just marry the guy so they can tick that box.

And the backlash of that is that for people like me who have never really been attached and don’t date, the “you’ll die alone” message gets louder and louder. And that devalues the friendships that are pretty much the centre of my life right now, because the message seems to be that if you’re ‘single’ you’re alone. That it’d be better to be in a bland, unfulfilling relationship than choose to spend that time and effort on really amazing, super-fulfilling friendships.

It’s like when you’re a kid or a teenager and you end up hanging out with people who’re kind of mean and aren’t especially nice to you but let you stick around anyway and aren’t actively cruel, and people say “oh well at least you have friends”. We put far too much value on being accepted, not by people worth caring about, but by people in general.

  #that got long and rambly    #sorry    #a chipped queue  

*whispers* am I the only one who really really didn’t like The Fault In Our Stars?

  #like i'm sorry    #I LOVE John Green    #Paper Towns is one of my favourite books ever    #as is Looking for Alaska    #but that book was so horribly inaccurate and pretentious    #it makes me so angry    #ranting    #sorry    #opinion    #anti-tfios  
Some months ago, my parents told me that I have a half-sister. She's almost twenty years older than me and my dad's daughter. They don't have any contact. At first I was really angry at them for not telling me, but from time to time I think about her... I'd like to meet her, but I don't know if it's a good idea. What should I do?


It really depends on how you feel about meeting her. For me, not knowing would be worse than knowing and being disappointed, but that’s just me, and that’s knowing my family. If you’d like to meet her, that indicates that maybe you’d feel better knowing about that part of your family, and having the whole story. On the other hand, it could distort your view of your parents.

Either way, giving a face and a personality to this new figure in your view of your family would change everything for you. That always happens when you get a glimpse of your parents as flawed human beings, rather than the beings we build them up to be in your head. So you could gain a friend and even a sibling, but having a relationship with her could strain your relationship with your parents, who clearly don’t desire contact. Or you could discover someone with a very different view of a man you’ve loved and respected all your life, and be rejected in the process.

On the other hand, if you never know her you might spend your life wondering who she is, what she looks like, how similar she is to you and how different. 

The decision has to be yours. If you do meet her, I’d say try to work it out with your parents first, so that you don’t end up doing more damage than good no matter what the outcome. If you don’t, then you’re not a coward or a fool for not wanting to: blood doesn’t mean anything without history behind it, and you owe nothing to anyone here. You don’t owe it to your parents to respect their wish to not know someone who is technically family; neither do you owe them some sort of revenge for not telling you, by insisting on meeting her anyway; and neither do you owe it to your estranged half-sister to try to know her.

You owe it only to yourself to do what you think is best, and try to resolve it however you can so it doesn’t hang over you indefinately.

  #I suck at advice    #sorry    #I don't have any experience so take it with a pinch of salt    #<3    #Anonymous  




Please, please stay indoors and don’t go out unless it is completely unavoidable. Tonight is meant to be the worst storm in 20 years, hurricanes and high winds topping over 100mph, so please please stay safe!

Reblogging for my UK followers

It’s meant to be the worst storm evah IN LONDON. 70% of the country will see a normal storm. Can we please remember that the UK does not equal London-And-The-Home-Counties please?

  #sorry    #bad day  

Until I see a picture of your face, you all look like your icon.

  #no I know some of you irl as well    #and with one exception    #you look like your icon    #sorry  

Fic: Irresistible Force (7/?)



Fic: Irresistible Force
Authors: Rufeepeach & Fyre
Rating: PG+
Summary: She held the keys to his cell in her hands. But a curse can change a lot of things, including who is bound and who is freed.
Notes: YAY! We got more done!

“I don’t love you.”


  #it's gon get bad before it gets good    #sorry  

I think the adage goes something along the lines of “book lovers never go to bed alone”.
Belle (c) Disney

Not if Gold has anything to say about it, anyway ;)


I think the adage goes something along the lines of “book lovers never go to bed alone”.

Belle (c) Disney

Not if Gold has anything to say about it, anyway ;)

  #SORRY    #but not really    #hijacking posts with OTP left and right  





The pain of knowing your favourite book has already become a movie.

But it was a bad movie.







Do not fucking take my childhood and make an anime movie out of scraps of it ok. I don’t even care if the movie is a decent movie on its own, it’s NOT THE BOOK ON SCREEN AND THAT’S WHAT I WANTED.

Howl’s Moving Castle is one of the best damn animated movies of all time by one of the best creators of all time. I loved that book too and I kind of feel offended that you said Hayao Miyazaki made the movie from ‘scraps’ of the book. 

If it’d been a live action movie it probably would’ve been a bit closer to the book, to be honest, but I love it because it is different from the book which is why I think Dianne Wynne Jones loved the animated movie as well. 

But he kind of did. He took the basic premise and a few of the characters and then made something completely different and new. And yeah he made something that’s fun to watch and pretty and I love Billy Crystal in it, it’s a really good movie. But it’s not at all like the book, it’s bits of the book put in with a whole lot of new anime things. I have it on DVD and rewatch it sometimes and enjoy it, but it’s scraps of the book mixed in with other stuff.

I don’t love it half as much as I love the book and my point was that if you’re going to make a movie out of it, don’t just cobble bits and pieces together. Either make a movie far enough removed that it stands entirely alone or make a movie of the book. As it is they have the rights so I don’t even know if they could make a movie of the actual book, anymore, which is a bit sad as far as I’m concerned.

I didn’t mean to offend fans of the movie, but I stand by what I said. They took out the bits of the story and characters that I loved most and that makes me a little sad, to be honest, when comparing the two.

  #blah I have a lot of feelings    #sorry  

Had an awesome dream last night.


It was of Rumplestiltskin in his castle and he was singing:

Just keep spinning.
Just keep spinning.
Just keep spinning, spinning, spinning.
What do we do we spin, spin, spin.
When you WAAAAAANNTTT to spin you want to spin.

Just let that image settle in you mind for a minute.

So i’ve been bursting into giggles all day.

It’s then ironic that Belle’s the one with the memory loss.

  #whoops    #sorry    #angst  
Time of day verse. Gold is sick this time.
This was your fault, not mine.

Belle had few reminders that she was involved with a man so much older and more alone than she was: Gold was better in bed, after all than her former, age-appropriate boyfriend, and he didn’t seem at all unhappy with his general lack of family or friends around.

But they had been kissing, getting heated, against his kitchen counters, and the next moment he had collapsed, and she wasn’t listed as a family member or even an emergency contact on hospital records - apparently, when a formerly healthy middle-aged man had a heart attack, the hospital were less than happy to allow visitors into the ICU on the premise of ‘we’re sex friends’. The waiting room was as far as Belle could go, and she could only sit there, too far from him, and wonder why she, the girl deal-bound not to give a rat’s ass about him beyond his performance in the bedroom, was the only one who cared if he lived or died.
  #time of day verse remix    #rumbelle    #ahahhahaa but you wanted porn    #sorry  



So i left, had a good cry and a cig and came back to all these lovely messages from everyone. Thank you so much, that anon really got to me. (putting it under a read more because i know not everyone wants to read about this).

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Remember that we all get comments like that. Stragg got some a while back, I think, people have sent hate at Bad-Faery, Ched, all kinds of people. Which leads me to believe that 99% of these people are genuinely just threatened that there’re people with the talent and, more importantly, the confidence to write and post and share and improve. They’re tearing people down to make themselves feel better. It’s textbook bullying, which means that it’s actually nothing to do with the recipient and everything to do with the sender.

Who none of us give a shit about, cause they send horrible things like this rather than being supportive and kind.

We love you, honey, so as you said, just ignore anyone who feels otherwise and pulls this kind of crap. Cause none of us have time for it <3

  #deariedeariedear    #woops that got long    #Ru has feelings    #sorry  

Cut for adolescent meaningless bitching. Scroll on.

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  #sorry    #I just had to vent    #people have waaay worse problems than this    #personal    #meaningless teenage whining    #wah wah life sucks    #poor little me  
  #sorry    #I'm having a harmless moment    #all the angst    #omg    #this fic    #i should write more of that    #ouat    #Rumpelstiltskin